Chapter 50:

Zhang Man was at the airport that day and stayed until the night fell.
She sat blankly in a cold seat in the waiting hall, not knowing what she was waiting for.
Surrounded by travellers in a hurry, there are parents traveling with their children, overseas students returning to China for the New Year, and office workers traveling north and south...
None of them are him.
As she searched, she began to keep recalling in her mind.
Time flies so fast, fate is caught off guard.
Just two days ago, she couldn't wait to get off the bus and fell into his arms. He tricked her into picking up the paper, pushed her under the small desk, and kissed her eagerly.
After watching the sea that day, he sent her downstairs and called her name.
She asked him if he could not bear her.
He did not answer.
He was reluctant to bear her at the time, right? Why didn't she find out?
Zhang Man regretfully tugged his hair, his heart hardly numb.
...
The winter vacation began, but she could no longer sleep.
One after another, the nightmare struck like in the previous life-when he closed his eyes, he was covered in blood and pale face.
One day, two days... She kept calling Li Wei's cell phone every day, hoping that he could turn it on. She hoped in her heart that maybe he would think of her late at night, in a strange place, and then turn on the phone to see if there is any news from her.
But he didn't, he never turned on the machine.
He didn't want her to find him.
Zhang Man didn't dare to think about what would happen when he was alone. Forty-eight hours later, she chose to call the police and emphasized Li Wei's very serious depression.
Unfortunately, after the police heard her narration, they immediately adjusted the hospital's information. The results of the examination showed that Li Wei did not suffer from depression, not to mention that there was no suicide in the email he sent to Zhang Man. Instead, he actively expressed that he wanted to go abroad for treatment.
So no matter what Zhang Man said, they didn't believe her, they thought it was just a couple quarreling, and the little girl wanted to find her boyfriend.
It was the end of the year, not to mention that a human trafficker group appeared in N City some time ago, and the police were so busy that it was impossible to use manpower and material resources to find someone.
Zhang Man retired and asked them to check Li Wei's ticket or train ticket purchase record.
The purchase of train tickets and air tickets requires real-name authentication, which can be found by checking the records of the police station.
Several policemen couldn't meet her plea and adjusted the records for her.
Strangely, there is no record.
According to data, within six months, Li Wei did not have any travel records of planes or trains.
Did he go there by coach?
Zhang Manhun returned home without giving up.
She ran out every day for the past two days and locked herself in the room when she returned home. Even Zhang Huifang had noticed this abnormality.
"Zhang Man, what's the matter? You quarreled with your little boyfriend?"
Zhang Huifang sat on the edge of her bed and touched her head.
Zhang Man's expression over the past two days was really wrong. He just took two bites of what he ate every day, and his face quickly became thin and pale.
She had already scolded Li Wei a thousand times in her heart: "Did that stinky boy make you cry? You tell your mother me and I will let people teach him."
People who are strong and stubborn will collapse in such endless anxious searching and waiting.
Zhang Man suddenly couldn't hold himself.
She hugged Zhang Huifang's shoulders and burst into tears.
No one can say the uncomfortable and worried in her heart, what should she say?
No one would believe her, not even the police.
No one has experienced past lives like her, and no one knows that Li Wei finally chose to commit suicide.
No one would believe that he is now in an extremely dangerous state.
Zhang Huifang suddenly cried when she saw her, and she was at a loss: "Manman, don't cry, mother is here, mother will take care of you if you have something to do."
Seeing her cry like this, is it the first time since she was in elementary school? She still remembers when Zhang Man was a child, once she got into trouble at school and was called a parent. She hurried over and was blushing with the teacher's words. The child was fine, standing by and looking down at the ground, it didn't matter what she was hanging up high.
She had never seen anything happen to her, she would take it to her heart.
She "cocked" in her heart and suddenly thought of something very bad.
She won't, is it the same as she did?
Zhang Huifang gritted her teeth and patted Zhang Man's back, making her voice as gentle as possible: "Come on, don't cry, tell mom if you have anything to do. Mom will help you find a way."
She said, squinting her eyes, her teeth itching with regret.
That day you shouldn't have promised Zhang Man to spend the night at that stinky boy's house!
Maybe the day they went to Z City...
She blamed herself infinitely in her heart. Why did she believe her nonsense, two young men living in the same room, thinking with their toes, they knew what would happen.
Although she was shocked, it had already happened, so she still had to treat it as nothing.
So Zhang Huifang tried to adjust her mentality, pretending to comfort her easily: "Manman, you heard from her mother that medicine is much more advanced now than her mother back then. If you find out earlier and get rid of it, it will not have any effect on your body. It won't affect your future."
Zhang Man was crying and crying, and suddenly felt wrong.
She raised her head and looked at Zhang Huifang with her mouth open, a little speechless.
Her mother is really invincible...
"Mom, where did you want to go... I didn't go to bed, I wasn't pregnant, and I didn't have to have a baby."
Zhang Huifang was taken aback after listening to it, and her mood became a lot clearer in an instant, and her voice became cheerful: "There is nothing terrible, nothing else is wrong. If you are not good to you, please break up, cry, girl, nothing , You don't have the spirit of your mother at all."
"Mom... I can't find him."
"He left me, I can't find her anymore."
Zhang Man's voice was hoarse and choked, sobbing tiredly on her shoulders. She felt a deep sense of powerlessness in her heart.
She is too tired.
Want to find someone, really tired.
Unexpectedly, Zhang Huifang was shocked when she heard this.
After being silent for a long time, she put her arms around Zhang Man's shoulders and said stiffly: "If you can't find it, you won't find it. When he is dead."
When he...dead.
Will he die?
Zhang Man cried even harder when he heard this.
"Mom, you don't understand, I must find him."
If she doesn't find him, what if he is really dead?
What should she do?
Zhang Huifang patted her on the shoulder, her voice with helplessness that she didn't usually have: "Zhang Man, if some people want to avoid you, then you may not find him for the rest of your life."
She sighed.
There are many things that she didn't want to remember in her entire life. Life is like this, not everything can be relieved, not all injuries can be sat down face to face and reconciled peacefully.
Some things, a brand, a scar, last a lifetime. If you don't hide them deeply, they will bleed.
After a long silence, Zhang Huifang said softly: "Like your biological father."
She said it, suddenly relieved.
It's like letting go of the heavy burden of a lifetime.
Zhang Man suddenly heard her say this, restrained herself and stopped sobbing.
Unexpectedly, Zhang Huifang actually mentioned her biological father to her in this life.
She thought she would never say this.
Zhang Huifang was silent for a while, as if reminiscing about the old things that she had hidden for more than ten years.
"I met your dad when I was seventeen or eighteen. He was a man in our school, handsome, good grades, and rich. But when we were sophomore in high school, he didn’t come to school for a long time. When the news spread, we knew that he was sick."
"My mother and me, I always liked him at that time. I was anxious to know that he was sick. So I sneaked into his house and threw pebbles on his window."
"I only knew when I saw him. It turned out that he had leukemia and it was in the late stage. Our age was not like the present. There was no cure at all. It was just lying at home waiting for death.
She said and smiled.
"I was immersed in love at the time, how could I be afraid. I was not afraid, I thought, I must accompany him to the end, and I want him to leave the best memory of the world before he dies."
Speaking of this, Zhang Huifang paused for a long time.
It is too difficult to personally expose the most difficult things for oneself.
"He was also moved by me, so I handed myself over to him."
"But suddenly one day, he disappeared, and his whole family disappeared. I couldn't find him. For a while, I even thought he was dead, crying like a man of tears every day."
"Later, I heard people say that it turned out that the hospital had a wrong check before, and it was someone else who was sick, not him. And he moved to the United States with his parents."
"After a long time, I found out that I had you. When I was young, I was anemic, thin, and had abnormal menstrual periods. When I was pregnant, the month was already old and it was not easy to abort. I could only give birth to you, and there was no book. Read it."
"Zhang Man, your mother and me, my whole life is a joke."
She recalled with difficulty, and sighed: "So, if some people are willing to disappear, let them disappear. Don't waste your thoughts and time to find him. A person who voluntarily hides, you can't find him. To his."
Zhang Man's heart was shocked.
The truth is so absurd and unbelievable, so sad.
No wonder she has never been willing to mention it.
Zhang Man felt a little distressed, she buried her head on her shoulder, but couldn't say anything to comfort her.
Perhaps, after so many years, what she needs is not comfort.
Since she had just cried, her voice was a little irritating: "Mom, what about... later? Have you never thought of asking him for an explanation?"
Zhang Huifang shook his head.
"It's too far, Manman. Ten years ago, for me, who had never been to N City, the United States was too far away. I couldn't find him at all. I told him the news through a few classmates. , But he never responded, and later heard that he was married there and had his own child."
Zhang Huifang said, and sighed: "It's impossible now. I heard from a classmate I knew that he had a car accident in the United States two years ago and died."
Zhang Man's heart fainted.
She felt chilled and worthless for Zhang Huifang. She did not expect her biological father to be such a selfish, cowardly, and unaccountable person.
"Do you hate him?"
"Of course I hated it. But now I don't hate it anymore. If it wasn't for him, there would be no you. Manman, mother gave birth to you and never regretted it. So, don't cry for a stinky man now, cheer up Come."
After listening, Zhang Man shook his head.
The teenager she loved was completely different from her cowardly father.
He is such a good, such a good person.
When he is with her, he will take care of her meticulously. He can spoil her infinitely under limited conditions.
He likes her, depends on her, and respects her.
The first day they lived together, he would rather sleep on the floor than touch her, and even if he slept next to her later, he would never go beyond the rules.
When he hugged her and kissed her, she could feel his restraint and tolerance every time.
This young man, he really used his whole heart to treat her. He looked at her eyes with admiration, cherishment, and cherishment.
He even tried his best to leave her for fear of hurting her.
Zhang Man suddenly had a desire to talk.
She ignored her rebirth and told Zhang Huifang all the things she had had with Li Wei, including his tragic life experience, his mental illness, his depression, and the reason why he left her.
She thought, if it were her, she might understand her.
After listening to Zhang Huifang, she gasped.
Unexpectedly, the boy who looked quiet and well-behaved had experienced so many misfortunes. And listening to Zhang Man's report, he seems to really like Zhang Man.
If she is listening to other people's stories, she will definitely encourage her at this moment, and quickly find him back.
But the words came to the lips and stopped again.
People are selfish, let alone her daughter.
"...Manman, have you really figured it out? If you find him, you plan to live with him for a lifetime? You are still young and don't know what a lifetime is. It will be very hard for you to live with someone like him. of."
Hearing this, Zhang Man was in a trance and wept.
She was not with him in the previous life. Wasn't it hard for her to have a hard time in that life?
She was crying, telling the truth.
"Mom, I only know that if I lose him, I will be very hard. Maybe in this lifetime, I won't have any happiness again."
Zhang Huifang hugged her and sighed.
Since she was young, she has been pursuing pure love.
But she was destined to not get it in this life, and she was on the wrong path from the very beginning.
She thought, if Zhang Man really thinks he must be, what else can she say?
"Manman, my mother is at this age, and now I just want to live a stable life, with you, and your Uncle Xu."
She went on to say: "But you are still young. If you really want to try, your mother will support you. If one day you get tired, just come back."