Chapter 45:

"Manman, I can't accept it."
Zhang Man was speechless and could only raise his head and eagerly kissed the stubble that had just grown on his chin.
She stretched out her hand and pressed her chest.
Looking at him like this, her chest was sore that she was almost choking.
The boy calmed down a little, and continued: "They came to me just now."
"Before you came, the two of them appeared at the same time, stood in front of me, and kept talking to me in my ear."
What he didn't say was that he just had a short time and lost his mind, and he himself didn't know what he did.
When she recovered, she was already by his side.
He said, closing his eyes, as if suddenly giving up the struggle.
"Man Man, what they said is correct, I am really a lunatic."
"For so many years, I have come out with two people who don't exist at all."
He lowered his head and buried his head in her neck, desperate and painful, and his voice was so low that he could hardly hear him.
"Do you want me, Manman?"
He is a madman, even his grandfather was afraid of him and abandoned him.
Even he himself hates himself.
Will she still want him then?
Is she scared? Will you... leave him?
"If you want to leave me..."
Then I will let go and let you go.
But the last half sentence couldn't be said, because if he said it, maybe his heart would burst because of pain-she was his only one.
If she leaves him, will he survive?
Zhang Man listened to the boy's words and eagerly covered his mouth.
"I won't leave you, Li Wei, do you remember what I said to you in the playground? I said, I will always be with you and never leave you. Don't worry, You’re just sick, just like catching a cold and a fever, you’ll be fine."
She watched him silent, afraid he would not believe it, and stretched out her hand eagerly: "You touch my arm. When I listen to you, I don't get goose bumps at all. Really, I am not afraid at all."
"Actually, when I came to your house, I discovered your illness on the day Nick was'at'. I was still calmly'saying hello' to him at that time. I'm really not afraid at all."
Li Wei was shocked.
Too much happened today that made him subconsciously ignore it.
So, she has always been aware of his illness? She knows all this, but still chooses to be with him?
Even if she knew this, she still hugged him tenderly and kissed him sweetly?
He raised his eyes eagerly to look at her, the girl's face still had tears clearly visible, and her red eyes looked at him stubbornly, as if to see him believe it.
Such familiar stubbornness reminded him of the time when she stretched out her hand to show him the needle eye in her hand in order to convince herself that she was really sick.
His vines treat him the same from beginning to end.
Even if the whole world abandoned him, she still wanted to stay with him-she did not abandon him like everyone else.
The intense pain and panic in the boy's heart gradually dissipated, and he suddenly began to rejoice - he was lucky enough to hold her in his arms in the midst of all misfortunes.
He hugged her tightly and rubbed her heart with his chin gently.
"Manman, go to sleep, you must be tired today."
"I don't, don't you believe me?"
Zhang Man stubbornly raised her head to look at him. She was very tired and sleepy, but she couldn't sleep at all until she got a reply.
"Well, I believe."
He thought, this time he had to be selfish. He had given her a chance, since she said not to leave, then he would never let go.
The boy patted the girl's back in his arms, trying his best to restrain his inner emotions.
Zhang Man was slightly relieved when he got his answer.
As long as he can let her accompany him, no matter how great the difficulty is, she will accompany him to step through.
Worried all night, running for so long in the snowstorm, psychological torture and physical weakness, her head is now groggy.
She wanted to open her eyes to look at him, but she couldn't restrain herself and fell asleep.
...
Outside the window, the blizzard that roared all night quietly stopped at this time. After the heavy snowfall, the city fell into a peaceful sleep.
In the room, the bedside lamp was adjusted to its lowest brightness, and the yellowish light shone on the faces of the two of them, quiet and warm.
The air conditioner entered a quiet sleep state at this time, working quietly.
The tranquility of the night has come.
Zhang Man’s breathing became more and more stable, but the teenager beside her did not dare to fall asleep—he still had lingering fears, he was afraid that after he fell asleep, the real warm body in his arms would become his delusion again .
At this moment, he suddenly heard a very light footstep.
"Da da da……"
In such a quiet night, it was creepy.
The boy opened his eyes suddenly and found that Nick was standing by the bed.
He suddenly got a face.
He smiled grimly and looked at him provocatively—his hands, folded, placed in a dangerous posture on the neck of the girl in his arms.
He wanted to hurt her.
The boy felt his blood ignited, and the nerves in his forehead kept beating. Before the violence in his heart reached its peak, he grabbed Nick's wrist, clamped him firmly, and pulled it out.
He would not allow anyone to hurt her.
He was very strong and merciless, so in the next second, he heard the other party's exclamation unexpectedly.
But that voice was not Nick's.
He suddenly woke up, only to realize that what he had just pinched was Zhang Man's wrist.
He immediately released his hand as if being electrocuted.
"what happened to you?"
Zhang Man rubbed her sleepy eyes. She just fell asleep for a while, suddenly felt a pain in her wrist, and woke up with an exclamation.
The boy gritted his teeth and tried to control his voice not to tremble.
"Nothing, I... just had a nightmare."
Zhang Man's heart sank.
The blow to him by this incident was really too great.
She pressed her temples, trying to force herself to wake up.
"Li Wei, you go to bed first, okay? I see you fall asleep and I will sleep again. Don't worry, I will always be by your side forever and will not leave. Don't think too much, the sun will rise tomorrow , Everything will be fine."
"……Ok."
The boy said, closing his eyes, seeming to listen to her very much.
Zhang Man opened his eyes and gently stroked his shoulder, coaxing him to sleep. She lay for a while, listening to his longer and longer breathing, and breathed a sigh of relief.
The boy's profile was calm and delicate in the faint light, his brows stretched, and his long eyelashes quietly cast two shadows on his cheeks.
He fell asleep as if he had not experienced any misfortune or pain.
It's fine to fall asleep, as long as he doesn't think about it, everything will be fine.
Zhang Man leaned over and kissed lightly on the corner of his lips.
She felt the warmth and softness of his lips, and couldn't help kissing again.
Then he leaned into his ear and said very softly: "Boyfriend, you must get better, I will always be with you by your side."
She will stay with him until she is old.
After finishing speaking, she couldn't resist sleepiness and tiredness anymore, turned over and fell asleep.
At this moment, the teenager who seemed to have fallen asleep suddenly opened his closed eyes behind the girl, and he could no longer control his shaking.
When he just recovered, he found that one of his hands was holding her wrist tightly, while the other was on her slender and fragile neck.
It turned out that it was not Nick who had to pinch her, but himself.
There was a wave of fear in the young man's heart that made him creepy.
The pajamas behind him were completely soaked in cold sweat, and the cold touch brought by the evaporation of sweat at this moment made him shiver severely.
He suddenly thought that that day, his father hung him on the clothes pole on the balcony. He was so delirious. He smiled and said to him: "If you don't dry it, you will catch a cold, and you will get sick and die... "
Then he hung him on the balcony with a rope tied around his neck, and then let him struggle desperately and painfully, and didn't bother him again.
If it hadn't been discovered by a neighbor, he would have died long ago.
The suffocation violently struck, and the knot of fate tightened his throat again at this time. Yes, why did he forget? He and his father are the same.
They are as crazy as they are dangerous.
Therefore, it is very likely that one day in the future, the person who is struggling and on the verge of suffocation will most likely become her.
The young man stretched out his hand to cover his mouth and curled up in pain. In such a quiet night, he gasped silently, his nails already squeezed into his palm. Suddenly there was an unspeakable burning sensation in his stomach, and he was so uncomfortable that he almost vomited.
He looked desperately at the sleeping girl in front of him.
Her back was slender, and her long silky hair covered a pillow. She lay on her side, sleeping with her back to him, and gave him the entire back with great trust.
She was not at all wary of him.
Shaking, the young man raised his hand and placed it under the bedside lamp.
Through the yellow light, he carefully looked at his hand-a slender, strong, and skeletal man's hand. It has the ability to do many things it wants to do, for example, cut off the one in front of him, Slender and soft neck.
His upper and lower teeth kept shaking, and he suddenly felt very cold.
Thoroughly cold.
He wanted to reach out to embrace the source of warmth in front of him, but at the moment he touched her soft hair, he withdrew his hand.
How dare you touch her again?
You just wanted to let her stay with you forever? How can you bear it? Let her be around a lunatic every day, fear and fear, and even face various fatal dangers.
The boy closed his eyes, curled up his index finger, opened his mouth and bit his knuckles. The sharp teeth pierced the skin easily, and blood poured out, salty and bitter.
Only in this way can he slightly transfer the pain in his heart, the kind of pain that made him dying.
He knows that it all ends here.
Let her go, let her go, she is a better girl than angels.
What about you, bear with me?
She accidentally tore a hole in his world from the outside, and then got in with hot sparks, so caught off guard. But he knew that perhaps he would not be able to get out for the rest of his life, so he couldn't selfishly shut her in and accompany him into the boundless darkness.
He was so lucky to meet this lost girl suddenly one day and fall in love with her. She stumbled into his darkness, and now he had to send her out with his own hands.
At this moment, the boy trembling helplessly, his eyes flushed.