Chapter 46:

The next day, N City, which was under a blizzard for a whole week, finally cleared up.
Zhang Man got up very early, and she made an online appointment with the psychiatrist she had consulted last time.
Now that Li Wei knew about his delusion, it would be good to receive psychotherapy at this stage even if he doesn't need medicine.
She was still worried about his mental trauma that she didn't know.
After Zhang Man made an appointment, it was a bit difficult to speak, for fear that he would resist.
After all, no one wants to admit that he has a mental illness.
She gritted her teeth and said, "Li Wei, will you go to the hospital with me today? I've got in touch. The doctor is an expert in this field, and he is very good."
After listening, the boy got a little low.
He thought for a while, as if he had done enough psychological struggle, then smiled helplessly: "Well, then you accompany me, okay?"
Zhang Man felt relieved when he saw his smile.
Finally smiled, it seems that his situation is getting better.
No matter what, as long as he is willing to overcome, she can accompany him through the difficulties.
But she was still a little uneasy, after all, this incident was too much for him, and she had to be careful everywhere.
Zhang Man shook his head, no matter what, go to the hospital first.
The two took their IDs and appointment slips and went to the last hospital.
At the entrance of the hospital, many doctors and nurses who were not on duty were cleaning the snow and thick ice on the road together-they had to make sure that the ambulance's route was unimpeded at all times.
Zhang Man took Li Wei to the office she had visited last time.
The doctor should have known her, and it would be revealing that she did not accompany him in, but sat at the door waiting for him.
After about an hour, the boy walked out calmly.
Zhang Man greeted him anxiously: "How? What did the doctor say?"
The teenager raised his hand and squeezed her face, his expression impermanent: "Well, she said it's okay."
I knew it was useless to ask him. After talking for an hour, it was all right?
Zhang Man stuffed the following checklists into his hands: "You sit at the door and wait for me, I will ask myself."
She knocked on the door of the doctor's office.
"Please come in."
Zhang Man opened the door and entered. The female doctor was not surprised to see that it was her. She smiled and nodded at her.
"I heard the symptoms described by the boy just now, and guessed it was probably what you said last time, your friend."
"Doctor, then... how is my friend's condition? He only found out yesterday that he had delusion, and he had a particular breakdown yesterday, and today seems to be much calmer."
The doctor took out a few large diagnostic notes she had just taken during the conversation with Li Wei.
"First of all, your friend's symptoms are indeed delusional among schizophrenia, and it has reached a very serious point. Second, his thinking and logic are clear and quick, there is no dementia, and there is no impaired social function."
Zhang Man listened and asked emphatically: "Then according to your judgment, has he experienced depression?"
In his previous life, Li Wei suffered a severe depression after that.
The doctor thought for a while and shook his head.
"After this hour of dialogue, he did not show any depression."
She said approvingly and nodded: "His mental state is much more optimistic than I thought, almost not like a mental patient. Perhaps it is also related to the care of your friends, and he himself admitted that although he broke down at the beginning, but Now he has accepted his mental condition and is willing to actively cooperate with the treatment. We are very happy to see such a situation. However, during this time, his mood may still be unstable, irritable, or willful. I hope you can Be understanding and tolerant."
Zhang Man breathed a sigh of relief after listening, and his tight mood relaxed a lot.
No one can tell Li Wei's depression in his previous life. At that time, he was alone in bearing all this, and he may even be unconscious for a long period of time, not knowing what is true and what is false in this world.
In this life, because she had been with him, she told him in the simplest way that he was just sick.
After that, the symptoms and mental damage he suffered must be much less than in the previous life, and maybe he can really bear it.
Zhang Man was suddenly very thankful that he went back to find him last night.
After completing several other checks, the two walked out of the hospital.
After being nervous all morning, Zhang Man felt a little hungry just now.
"Li Wei, are you hungry? Let's have lunch first."
She turned her head and found that the young man was standing under the traffic light at the intersection, looking at her in a daze.
There seemed to be too many emotions in his eyes.
"what happened?"
Zhang Man touched his face.
The expression on the boy's face flashed by, and then he smiled warmly, walked over and took her hand: "It's okay, let's go."
Zhang Man remembered what the doctor said just now that he might still be emotionally unstable during this period.
She squeezed his hand: "Yeah."
There was a crowded small noodle shop in the street just across from the hospital. This noodle shop doesn't even have a name. The store is very small. There is a big shed at the door with seven or eight small tables.
Simple folding tables and plastic chairs are not clean.
It was noon, and there were so many people outside the shop, almost full.
A typical fly house.
This kind of small restaurant hidden in the streets and alleys with many customers usually tastes good.
Zhang Man just wanted to sit down, but suddenly heard the boy say.
"Manman, let's go to a better place for dinner today, okay?"
Zhang Man decided to listen to him today, so he took his hand and said with a smile, "Okay."
N city is close to the sea. At the end of the 19th century, the Germans leased a large area to build railways and ports. Therefore, there are many German and Italian restaurants in the European style street in the city center.
The teenager took her into the most central German restaurant with a long history.
The Gothic architectural style in this area is also very European-straight walls, towering spires, and large-scale stained glass windows are also one of its characteristics.
The restaurant is located in the most central and most prosperous place of Fengqing Street.
The receptionist at the door was very cultivated, and did not show the slightest negligence because the two were young.
The two were directed to a position by the window.
The young man walked to her first and pulled a chair for her very gentlemanly. Zhang Man was a little uncomfortable.
The decoration style of the restaurant is very ancient and elegant. The large floor-to-ceiling windows allow the noon sun to shine in unreservedly, hitting the entire colorful glass on the wall, reflecting the rainbow-like light.
Although it is lunchtime, there are not a few people in the restaurant. Obviously, most people in N City are more accustomed to the casual and rich Chinese taste than the expensive and courteous western restaurants.
The two did not take the menu, and directly asked for today's chef's recommendation.
The main dishes are traditional German sausages and grilled pork chops. The taste is slightly heavy, not as delicate as French dishes, but it is actually more in line with Zhang Man's taste.
The salad after the meal is very refreshing, and it neutralizes the spicy and greasy texture of the previous sausage and pork chop.
The price of this meal, even though it was 19 years ago, is still too expensive for Zhang Man to notice.
After the two of them had eaten, Li Wei proposed to go to the beach for a walk.
Zhang Man felt a little strange in his heart.
Today, he seems to have made a lot of suggestions. In the past, he was very indifferent to these details of life, so basically the two of them were outside and listened to Zhang Man.
And when she had just eaten, she always felt that he always seemed to look at her, but every time she looked up, she found him with his eyes down, concentrating on eating.
She shook her head, letting herself ignore the strangeness in her heart.
Perhaps the doctor was right, he was just a little emotionally unstable.
The exit of Fengqing Street is the sea.
Unlike the sea next to Li Wei's house, there is a pure golden sandy beach along the coast.
The seaside here is full of rugged reefs.
The winter sun is not as scorching as the summer, and the two are walking among the reefs, with large pebbles under their feet.
Zhang Man was a little unsteady, but fortunately, the boy had always been holding her.
After walking for about seven or eight minutes, at the corner of the coastline, there is a pile of reefs towering on the beach.
The two climbed up to one of them along the zigzag crevices sharpened by the sea water in the middle.
On the top is a flat stone platform.
The boy jumped up on the stone with one hand, turned up quickly, and reached out his hand to her.
"Manman, I will pull you up."
Zhang Man nodded, stepped on a protruding rock on the reef, was pulled by him, and sat beside him.
As soon as he sat down, Zhang Man exclaimed.
"so beautiful."
It is very high here and has a very good view. A straight coastline at the junction of sea and sky can be seen clearly.
In the distance, some large and small fishing boats have sailed. Except for the fishing moratorium during the year, even in winter, fishing people who depend on the sea for their livelihoods go out to sea without stopping.
Under the reef they were sitting on was the roaring sea, and the waves rolled up and beat on the rock.
There is really a feeling of being embraced by the sea.
"Li Wei, this place is so beautiful, have you been here before?"
It's very beautiful.
Such a beach is suitable for saying goodbye.
The boy embraced her and looked in the direction of the sea: "When I was alone at home, I occasionally came here to see the sea. Actually, thinking about it now, it’s not bad when I’m alone."
Zhang Man did not hear the meaning of his words, and sighed sincerely: "This world is always in some unknown corners, quietly exuding its beauty. Li Wei, when you get better, we Can we go on a trip together? In winter, we can go to Sanya to spend the winter. The winter there is as warm as usual, far less difficult than N City. In spring, we can go to Jiangnan to experience the rainy season and the sea of ​​flowers in Jiangnan. And autumn...
She babbled, getting more excited as she talked.
Even if he is ill, as long as he can actively cooperate with the treatment, he will recover. She will always accompany him and go to all the beautiful and romantic corners of the world with him, so that he will be accompanied by someone at all times and feel happy.
She spoke seriously, but didn't notice that the teenager beside her looked at her profile so intently and greedily.
In his eyes, there is a sadness wider than the sea.
In the future, he also wants to be with her, there is a future.
The boy didn't let her go on, he broke her head forcibly, and kissed his angel for the last time on the roaring sea and on the towering rocks.