Chapter 47:

The two walked back from the beach. Zhang Man originally wanted to stay at Li Wei's house for one night and would go to the school final exam with him tomorrow, but Zhang Huifang kept calling to remind her, so she had to bid him farewell.
She was still a little uneasy, accompanied him to the store to buy a new cell phone, and installed the phone card: "Boyfriend, you want to text me tonight."
The boy nodded obediently, with a smile on his lips: "Well, Manman, I will take you home."
When she got downstairs at her house, Zhang Man just wanted to go upstairs, but he heard the boy calling her behind her.
"Man."
His voice was hoarse and he couldn't hear much emotion.
Zhang Man turned his head: "What's wrong? Can't bear me?"
The boy was silent for a long time, but finally he didn't speak.
He smiled at her and waved his hand, the strong emotions in his eyes that couldn't be removed, in this winter, there seemed to be a different temperature.
Zhang Man's heart was hot, she walked over and kissed him gently on the cheek, her eyes bright: "Well, then I'm going upstairs. Don't think about it at home yourself, just call me if you have anything, OK? ?"
"Well, go up."
Maybe it was the sea breeze that blew all afternoon, and the boy's voice was a bit thick nasal.
His smile was so warm that Zhang Man's heart was slightly at ease.
Things are always going in a good direction, right?
In the warm winter sun, the thick snow was melting silently. The solid ice ridges on the eaves kept dripping.
"Tick, tick, tick."
The water droplets on the light gray concrete floor circled a thick color.
Everything was strangely peaceful.
Many times, people cannot perceive when they are in peace, and there may be storms afterwards.
That night, the two kept in touch. Zhang Man would send a text message to Li Wei every few minutes, and he would reply in a regular manner. Although he didn't talk much, Zhang Man could feel that he was much calmer than before.
Li Wei even sent her a copy of the physics exam. Zhang Man looked at the densely packed questions and felt warm.
At this time, he can still think of the words he said before to help her.
He seemed stronger than she thought.
...
On Monday, Zhang Man arrived at school very early.
The final exam was very tightly arranged, with two and a half hours of Chinese in the morning and math in the afternoon. The exam on the second day is divided into liberal arts and sciences. Liberal arts students are politics, history, and geography, and science students are science, chemistry, and students.
Each grade is divided into a different examination room, in the empty teaching building on the other side of the school.
Zhang Man went to the classroom first, there were not many people in the classroom.
Li Wei is not there either.
He usually comes earlier than Zhang Man. As long as she walks into the classroom in the morning, you can see him sitting quietly and reading.
But today he is not here.
Looking at his empty desk, Zhang Man suddenly had a bad feeling in her heart. She asked the boy who was sleeping on his stomach at the desk: "Jin Ming, have you seen Li Wei?"
Just as Jin Ming went to bed, he rubbed his sleepy eyes a little when he was tossed, "Well, I just saw him coming. I took a file bag and went out. I should go directly to the examination room?"
Today is the final exam, and there is no morning reading class arranged. Many students will go directly to the exam room to review.
Zhang Man breathed a sigh of relief.
She pressed her temples and shook her head helplessly.
She is still too sensitive. He was still thinking about giving her the question paper last night, and he should be in a much better mood.
As long as it is related to him, her nerves will begin to tense.
At this time, Chen Feier called her at the back door of their class: "Man Man, what are your ink marks, go to the examination room, there are still more than 20 minutes, and it will take a while to walk from here."
Zhang Man nodded, packed the stationery bag, and went to the examination room with her.
In order to prevent cheating, schools are categorized according to liberal arts and sciences for such large-scale examinations and ranked randomly. She and Li Wei were not in the same examination room, but happened to be together with Chen Feier.
Before Zhang Man entered the examination room, he deliberately turned to the examination room where Li Wei was and looked in from the window.
She saw him at a glance.
The young man did not turn the book nervously like the others, he lay quietly on his position, seeming to be sleeping.
Zhang Man didn't bother him, he sighed in relief and scolded himself nervously. Then he pulled Chen Feier through the long corridor, upstairs, and went to their own examination room.
Chen Feier walked, pursing her mouth, and muttering dissatisfied: "I said how you walked from the second floor, so I wanted to see your dear boyfriend. How about it, does his head look good?"
Zhang Man was amused.
She thought of the girl's faint expression when she told Chen Feier that she was with Li Wei that day.
It has not changed until now.
Chen Feier saw that the strategy of You Resent didn't work, she changed to acting like a baby, and she shook her arm back and forth: "I don't care, if this continues, I think you are going to abandon me. Manman, you mustn't overrule friends!"
Zhang Man looked at her, feeling better, and rubbed her head with a smile: "Well, I promise you."
Chen Feier became happy now.
"Well, then when you two get married, I will be your bridesmaid."
Zhang Man suddenly thought of his previous life.
When Chen Feier got married, she was her only bridesmaid.
She still remembers that at that time, Chen Feier was wearing a delicate crown and a gorgeous wedding dress, standing on the stage, throwing the bouquet in her direction, and crying: "No one is allowed to grab her, Zhang Man, you must be happy!"
Zhang Man's heart is warm, maybe she will really get married earlier in this life.
...
The last of the two-day exam is physics.
Due to an extra page of additional questions, the test time has been extended from two hours to three hours. Of course, students who do not do additional questions can hand in papers in advance.
Zhang Man glanced at the title and was a little surprised-it was really close to the paper that Li Wei sent her two days ago.
She finished smoothly, handed in the paper half an hour early, and walked briskly to the classroom.
There are no lunch breaks and late self-study in the two days of the exam. Whether it is after dinner at noon or after the exam in the afternoon, it is free time. Li Wei seemed to go home straight after each exam, and when he came to the examination room for the next exam, he never returned to the classroom.
So during the two days of exams, she hardly had any time with Li Wei-although before each exam, she could see him in his exam room and said a few words, but it was a few minutes in a hurry. .
Thinking of this, Zhang Man speeded up his pace and turned into the first grade teaching building.
Today is the winter vacation after the exam. Li Wei will definitely go back to the classroom to pack things. She plans to go to his house to have dinner with him in the evening.
There were already quite a few students in the corridor at this time, probably some students who did not do additional questions and turned in papers in advance.
Several boys walked in front of Zhang Man, discussing the paper just now.
"This time the question is given by a class teacher. Isn't it too difficult? Don't talk about the additional questions. I only have two main questions. How about you?"
"No? It's Liu Zhijun's paralyzed face. I said why it's so difficult...I'm done."
"If you're unlucky, I'm unlucky? I'm really on my back today. Originally, it was not Li Wei who sat in front of me in the examination room. I heard that he got full marks every time in physics. I was thinking about taking a sneaky glance at him. Missed the exam."
"Classmate, you just said that Li Wei was missing the exam?"
As soon as the boy finished speaking, he heard anxious questioning behind him. He turned his head back a little impatiently, only to realize that it was their school freshman who was suddenly enthusiastic.
"Well, he is missing the exam."
"How is it possible? I saw him sitting in the examination room before I took the physics test."
"This...I don't know. He just came and sat for a few minutes, said something to the invigilator before the test, and left. Oh, I think he seemed to hand the invigilator a request for leave."
Fake note? He never told her.
She immediately ran back to the classroom, pulled out the mobile phone in her schoolbag, turned it on, and immediately called Li Wei.
"Hello, the number you dialed has been turned off, please call again later."
The same as last time, a cold mechanical female voice.
Suddenly a boundless panic arose in Zhang Man's heart. This feeling was even more serious than last time.
Her eyelids began to jump wildly, and her constant restraint of sensitivity exploded at the same time during the two days.
Where did he go?
At this moment, the mobile phone issued a "didi" message prompt.
It is the email reminder of the mobile phone email.
She opened her inbox and found an email with no subject.
Zhang Man saw the sender's email address, his heart beating wildly.
It's Li Wei.
She shook her hand and opened the email.
Since they met, she saw him type the most words, a page full.
"Manman, my school and I applied for a leave of absence, and went to another city for treatment, maybe we won't come back. Let's... break up."
"If you want to refute, please listen to my three reasons first? First, I have been thinking about it for a long time in the past two days. At present, the most important thing for me is to cure my schizophrenia and other things. , Including physics, including you, I don’t have the energy to take care of it."
"Second. Manman... I know that you may not be able to accept what I said to you now, but... Do you remember the beach I took you to the day before yesterday? That beach, I used to go to it often when I was alone In fact, being alone is good sometimes, I can think calmly in my own world."
"Actually, I never said that. I admit that I used to like you crazily for a while, but when you were there, it more or less hindered my calmness. When a person is immersed in love, it is easy to be swept away Mind, deviated from my original track, I think after I was with you, I did a lot of things that I would not have done before. Such a change is not appropriate for me."
"Forgive me, forgive me for wanting to go back to square one."
"Third, people like me are actually more suitable for living alone. Manman, do you know about my dad? When I was in the hospital, my dad committed suicide at home...for him Because of the harm his mental illness caused to me, he couldn’t accept it, so he chose to commit suicide. Manman, I don’t want to repeat his mistakes. In other words, I might not like you as much as I thought."
"I don't want to take such a big risk for you"
"Manman, maybe in your heart, I am very special. It is not because of me, but first love is very special for everyone. You are still young and have not experienced so many stages in your life. I know that the likes now are not enough to support us through our life. In the future...you will meet someone a hundred times better than me"
From beginning to end, he didn’t say anything to be afraid of dragging her down or hurting her. His every reason, the starting point was himself, and everything was chilling polite, cool, calm and selfish— —Any 16 or 17-year-old girl who reads it will be so disgusting that she can't eat, sleep, think that her feelings have been disappointed, and then gradually forget it in pain and anger.
Just like her previous life.
Zhang Man trembled after reading this passage, unable to restrain the uncomfortable and panic in his heart.
All are farting...what else is there, huh, there is no logic in each one, where is it like something he can say?
His tone seems so calm, so reasonable and well-founded, it seems to be well thought out, but some sentences are not fluent, and even the punctuation marks he usually obeys are forgotten to add.
He was playing her like a sixteen or seventeen-year-old boy.
No wonder, no wonder he suddenly took her to such an expensive restaurant yesterday, and also took her to the beach. It turned out that he was saying goodbye to her.
He had already made plans to leave her.
She knows him so well.
The more calm he is, the more distance he wants to draw a line with you, the more his heart collapses.
This young man who has suffered all the hardships and misfortunes, he didn't want to impose those hurt and despair on her. Even if he left, it would be disgusting to leave.